Friday, July 29, 2016
When Chemotherapy Gets Complicated
The first thing that happened was that I forgot that I was getting chemotherapy on that day. What? How could that be? Well, I did, and as the result I missed a meeting that I had set up and wasted a lot of people's time. I felt very badly about it, and beyond apologizing there really is nothing I can do to fix it other than make an effort to not let it happen again. It was a stark reminder that life is cery complicated and that the juggle can be more than one can reasonably manage at times.
The other thing is that I have started having an allergic reaction to the chemotherapy. I do not have the side effect (yet) that I was worried about, and this in no way will limit my therapy, but I am beginning to understand why people might want to stop therapy and get on with life. The problem is that this is a bad disease and getting on with life now might translate to giving it up prematurely later, and so of course I am going to do everything my oncologist recommends that I do, but I have gotten to the point where I could see how it could get old. But, as Dory the forgetful but optimistic fish often says, just keep swimming.